Recently I suffered an injury that had me out of work for about a month. It was quite the adjustment for me to be home as much as I was considering I had been working non-stop since…well I cant remember. Its just been that long. I have not been blessed to be able to work for a fire department that allows me to only work one job, so therefore I work three. Its just the way it is.
During my time off I had to really practice patience with my 3 year old son. He is the spitting image of me and also just like his mother (go figure), so our personalities clash. Im not really used to being home this much, and neither are my kids. While I was home my son began to grow more. Grow as in talk more, act better, and become an all around little man. My 11 month old just loved me being there every morning, and I enjoyed her smiling face as well. My 9 year old just ate it up and was in my shadow constantly. My kids are homeschooled so I was able to participate in many of their activities and I enjoyed that as well. My kids just did so well with me being home.
So there in lies the conflict. I am living my career dream by being a firefighter, but my kids are missing an active dad as a result. I have to work to provide for my kids, but I am missing my kids as an active dad. I returned to work 2 days ago and I was PISSED when I found out that my kids had gone bike riding without me, my daughter stood up without me, and everyone had fun without me. I know things will return to normal, but something has to change. I need to find a way to spend more time with my kids, while still “living the dream”
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